happy xmas (war is over)

my last chemo was on august 26th.

i don't know the whole story. i don't even know half of it.

real real tired.

definitely an adult-sized dose.

Max has two teeth. i have too many no matter how many i pull out.

i know too much for polite conversation. i am too sick to be fine. too sad to be angry. too tough to die. too bored to cry.

i know enough to know this isn't over.

THRIFTINESS IS NEXT TO GODLINESS

...is my new blog.
it is not about cancer.

iamawomannow.blogspot.com

can I Graduate?

i been trying to fashion some sort of handle on this situation. it's okay. i'm flexible. inhale exhale. let go let go let go. i'm still me. i'm probably more myself than i was before? ? when i was reduced to skin and bones and fetus and blind optimism i had no choice but to survive and bring Max in this world with every fiber of my being. to be honest... it was easy. because it was all i had to do.

remission? i wanna be in you.

I'm a Pepper

how in the world do you lose everything only to end up on top with every dream come true? how do you keep your cool in this situation? how do you not get cancer? tell me it involves Dr. Pepper.

how will i ever top this past year?

oh right. by getting everything back in it's right place. duh.

also who do i date now? ha.